So its roughly week 6 in this pregnancy and I am really excited to have this child with my husband, my two previous children are from a past marriage and relationship which I could have given them more than what turned out to be failed relationships. I can't predict the future with me and my husband but realistically we don't posses the same character flaws the last relationship did. If not cliche a real fundamental love! So my husband Ravi is excited to have the love for a child from the beginning, he loves my children so much he wonders how he could love more! I also fear this as I have a son and a daughter, so when asked what I would like this time I feel I'm doing an injustice to one or the other to choose so I just don't have a real heartfelt opinion this time!
My best friend just found out she was pregnant the same day I called her to tell her I was as well and our other friend (whom makes up the trio) is five months pregnant also, we were all so excited to be experiencing it together and then yesterday I get a double blow of bad news My friend ( lets call her Hayden) lost the baby and my other friend (lets call her Ginny) found out her husband is moving to Arizona with her two younger sons whom she has been fighting to get custody back from. I feel both my friends lost something today and I feel so guilty for being so genuinely happy, I have no fears, no pain, no loss but I do know that when friends experience true pain there is no difference between theirs and yours.
